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Tuesday, March 31, 2015

I SAID NO




I SAID NO

Mom, he is bad news said my daughter
But that was putting the train behind the caboose
As my life and love and trust were already being slaughtered
Because he had already started his abuse

You said take your clothes off thrice
You must have been hard of hearing
Because I said no thrice
But to you that had no bearing

I couldn’t look into your eyes
For all the times that I said “No”
You just kept looking at me with hungry eyes
It was all becoming so surreal you know

It’s hard to remember my clothes coming off
But I remember you laying me down softly
You wanting to pop off
And I wanting you to leave me

For my very life I was afraid
If I had yelled or screamed you know
So the choices were made
That I would not be thrown through my bedroom window

Wishing I could scream and someone hear me
And then I don’t remember no more
For it was Jesus who came and took me
So I would not feel the pain no more

I watched you from the top of my room
Everything was in a haze of yellow
I did not hear what was going on in the room
I had no feelings and everything was mellow

Jesus had his arms around me
He said that everything will be OK
I understood that this was meant to be
And there on the bed I was to lay

I don’t remember you leaving
My thoughts were spinning as I lay there
Something surely left my heart bleeding
What had happened was not quite clear

I remember feeling dirty
Not one call did I make to you
Showers and baths they must have been thirty
Confusing thoughts was what I had of you

For you this was not the only time
Once you threw me over my furniture
It would not be the last time
But this time was your overture

My husband I did tell
Bizarre he thought it was
Leaving me to live in hell
He said it was a story I made up just because

I thought that no one would believe me
You were an ex- police officer
And so your story would have more credibility
This was certainly not the justice that I deserve

Two young girls I was to raise
And for them I was to be silent
The rest of my life was a maze
Preachers and Pastors and clergy I begged for my repent

They told me that it was my fault
For it was how I was dressed or what I was wearing
One told me that I got a job outside the home and that was my fault
Because of that I deserved what I was bearing

No one understood me when I said No
Through a glass I felt that I was shouting
How many times should I have said “NO?”
I did not dress the way they were recounting

It was the end of fall
I was wearing corduroy’s and a thick heavy sweater
Nothing revealing that is all
I was simply dressed for the weather.

I was not dressed to share my goods
Three times I said NO
Yet no one has really understood
No one would believe me you know

Everything was not OK
My life was changed by force
You didn’t have a high price to pay
With you there was no remorse

You took my innocence and my trust
You shot through my heart with your bow and arrow
So telling my story is a must
Girls all over the world are abused like this take a hard blow

Many girls have their own stories that began when they said “No”
Some are untold and in silent they live their lives
No doesn’t mean yes, it means NO
You better listen because most of us are not telling lies

Trust is broken and she cannot reveal
Can’t you hear me when I say “No”
So her whole life there is something missing that she cannot feel
And her words were disbelieved the moment that she said, “No”

This happened a many a year
This woman that I am still can’t believe
That there is still the victim’s fear
In today’s society, that has supposedly grown so, how can this still be?


Tuesday, March 17, 2015

A Poem About The Tomato


The Healthy Tomato


In Your Garden or on your porch or patio vision if you will

The sauces and sandwiches you will fill

With the weed that it once was

It took over gardens and was killed just because

They didn’t see the need for it,

Until someone one day tasted it.

It was mighty fine and others found out too

That the tomato was something they really could use

All the good things that you can make

From this weed for goodness sake

Sliced, Diced, Stewed and as Sauces are provided by nature

A bounty of Red’s, Black, Pink and White all fit into the picture

Amazing these energy packed little seeds

It holds all the Vitamin C your body needs

Being a weed they are very easy to grow

They grow kind of fast you know

Fill a 5 gallon bucket with dirt

Add some compost and used coffee grounds it won’t hurt

Put that little seed in it and plant it well

Watch the cycle from flowers to how large the fruit can swell

There are many varieties to suit your space

Patio, Cherry and Grape and ones that are the size of your dinner plate

Just like the many weeds on this earth

In time we are sure to find the plant’s true worth

So fill your garden with lots of these tomatoes

Plant them in pots, or buckets or right under your toes

Varieties with growing seasons that are short or long


Plant some tomatoes and you won’t go wrong.

Monday, March 16, 2015

All The Colors Of My World


There are many colors today then there ever where or named before. Crayola first had a box of colors for their crayons of a simple spectrum of the Roy G Biv which are Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Indigo and Violet.
With a few years of imagination, ingenuity he finally invented many more colors that fit into a box of 64. With those you can have many more colors than that.
Just take a look at nature from where you sit or out into the world around you and you will see a plethora of colors. They can range from bright white, orange and reds of fall, many shades of green, pinks, purples and blues of spring, to the darkest blacks of night.
I wrote a poem that tells about the Colors Of My World.

Colors Of My World
Colors the blind and everyone else do see
From red, oranges, yellows and green
I see a color that reminds me of you
From magenta, yellow or pink or blue

They tell me a story of your frequencies or ray
But they are never just plain old grey
Reds are a hot color and associated with many emotions
Such as passion, anger and used to heal diseases of blood and circulation

Orange heal the digestive system, chest and kidney disease
Let those colors do as they please
You show me who you are by your colors I see
Your vibrations hold answers about who you are

There are songs about colors like Karma Chameleon with his dreams of Red, Gold and Green
And how Boy George tells of things not always seen
And Cindi Lauper's song about how people hide their world of colors
And will eventually show their True Colors

Lest we forget the famous song that is often the first dance at the Prom in the teen's world
That great slow dance song by Chicago, Color My World

Sewing is my forte and I make lots of things
Of which all the fabric and the colors that it brings
A simple piece of material I imagine all unfurled

Will l create something for someone with the colors of my world?

Thursday, March 12, 2015

THERE WILL I BE

This is one of the first poems that I had written when I was a teen.  I had it in a book in which I had lots of other things in too.  I even had pressed flowers and lyrics to songs.    Back then you could not get them off the internet because there was no internet then.  I would sit most of the day just listening over and over again to get the words down on paper. I was what you consider as an introvert.  I had friends but mostly I stayed inside in my room. Mom used to throw us out of the house and tell us to blow some stink off of us.
It was a sad day when my father came into my room and threw the book out with some of my clothes and all my medals that I won in Majorettes.  Somehow this poem didn’t get thrown away and I found it in my high school yearbook.  So I typed it up.  There must have been a reason why this poem was saved from being thrown out.  I believe that there are reasons for everything and times that things are supposed to happen.  Maybe it was to share with all of you at this particular time.  So without further ado here it is for you to enjoy.

THERE WILL I BE

There will I be
In the delicate evening mist as it drapes over the glade
With nature as she lays her flora and fauna to rest
When the night creatures come out that she has made
Looks for me, it’s not a test

There Will I Be
To protect you through the cold, dark, night
In the shadows that creep over the countryside
And in the shimmering moonlight
Search for me far and wide

There Will I be
When the first light arises in the east
When the morning dew evaporates form the still vegetation
You will see me at nature’s breakfast feast
Watch me in all the action

There Will I Be
In the grassy meadows with the scurrying chipmunks and the frolicking Deer
With the great Eagles and on the wings of Doves
In the woodlands and on the sandy shores there will I appear
Like heavenly Angels sent from above

There Will I be
In the tranquil breeze of spring and in the pure winter snow
In the mirror of your soul what do you see?
Just close your eyes and then you will know
There Will I Be


Tuesday, March 10, 2015

She Dances Around The Earth


Dancing Around The Earth - A Poem

Dancing Around the Earth
Spreading Beauty and Mirth
In autumn's glorious season
In preparation for her leaving
Before she is ready to depart
All her Kingdom plays one last part
The Oaks, and Maples and Birches have spent
Their wondrous show in their beauty pageant
Now have the Wind to help the many
Spread their many colored confetti
Squirrels and Birds come to feed
On the many falling seeds
Storing some in the Earth Below
Where they begin to slowing grow
O'er winter’s deep sleep
And Spring when they peek
From their bed's so cold
They come out so bold
With leaves and flowers all new and bright
They lift their faces up to the light
But as time marches on
And spring and summer have gone
It is time once again
When it is their time to begin
With the never-ending reasons
To aid in the cycle of the seasons
To spread beauty and mirth

That Dances Around the Earth

Hemorrhoids - What A Pain In The Butt

Hemorrhoids - What A Pain In The Butt


Sometime there will come a day
Which when you squirm
Will give you great pain
And lots of burn

Oh what a pain
When you try to go
And you sit and strain
And you still cannot go

Watch what you eat
Because there will be something small
That will cause a burning pain between your cheeks
When you eat too much fiber and all 

It's awful when you can't sleep
With each move it produces more burn
And, oh no, you don't want to have a seat
But next time you will learn

Such a small thing in the crack
Oh what a pain in the butt
Oh hemorrhoid please don't come back
Oh someone please go get me some Tucks!



I have had experience with these embarrassing things. Some people get them when they consume too much fiber and the bowels do not want to move.  There is just too much stuff and not enough fluid to make them move. The fecal matter becomes really hard which makes the person strain, therefore the occasional hemorrhoids. External Hemorrhoids are caused by straining to go to the bathroom.  During this straining blood vessels will become enlarged and will stretch which causes them to be pushed out.  Diarrhea, constipation, overweight will also cause the straining and added pressure. Pregnant women in their later months might also experience these.  Just for your information there is an estimate of over 10 million people who suffer from hemorrhoids in their lifetimes. These become very sensitive to the touch and can make it painful to wipe.  Sometimes they will bleed bright red and you will see it on the toilet paper after wiping.  If they bleed lots then it is time to make a visit to your Doctor to make sure they are not cancer. Sometimes they will itch.  Mine do not.  Hemorrhoids do burn, I can tell you that.  It is hard to sit or stand or even lay in bed, once you get situated in a comfy soft chair you don't want to move. There are a couple of products on the market and over the counter that you can get to help ease the burning pain, swelling and itching.  One, I am pretty sure everyone has heard of is Preparation H and the other is Tucks.  Hemorrhoids usually are not that serious and only last for a few days.  I tried to go to sleep today because I couldn't get to sleep last night and came up with the poem.

Monday, March 9, 2015

Moon Glow -A Poem About The Night



So magical, full and bright
Tis the moon out in the sky tonight
Her beams she sweeps with her hand
And spreads an eeriness across the land

The air is so crisp and clear
And it seems like the moon is so very near
For if you could just reach out your hand that you could touch her
Up in the sky she looks down and watches over

The Deer, Possums, Coons and Cats that rustle about
Owls hoot and fly for it is their time to be out
They can see everywhere just as if it were day
But it is a softness that the moon does lay

Upon the land that she does nurture
Where her mysteries are kept hidden in nature
This is where legends and stories grow
In this magical land where the moon does glow


The Chasm In My Heart


A Poem about Love Across Time.


I believe from the beginning it was just a silly little game,
Then slowly over the years there began between us a searing flame.
And this kind of love would upset some people's apple carts,
And that began the chasm in our hearts

In my dream you called out to me which you don't do a lot.
It was a dream where for our lives that you and I fought,
In a cataclysm of water that tore us apart,
And left us with a chasm in our heart

A great gem we shared us two,
A bright sparkling Ruby divided between me and you.
We were separated and torn apart,
And what it left was a chasm in our heart.

The age difference divided you and me,
And we kept our silence as we knew we could never be.
I chose not you but to another I became a part,
And it left a chasm in your heart

So you found another, whom was similar to me,
And you told me to let you be.
So after many years I have let you be and we have been apart,
And that left a chasm in my heart

From the beginnings of Atlantis to the end we have been twin souls,
But for this life one life we were not to stoke the embers of our love's coals.
As the deluge of water came.
I was swept in and the waters they did tear us apart,
This started the chasm in our hearts.

Frantically we reached out to each other.
You were on the land and I was in the water,
You had one half of our Ruby and I had the other part,
That which began the pain in the chasm of our heart

Deep from beneath the waters I could see you,
From the deep I swam up to reach you.
Once I emerged from the water with the Ruby that was my part,
We tried to close the chasm in our heart.

I put the ruby against the back of your head,
In my dream you once again showed me that the love we have is not dead,
It's just in this life we have to learn our Soul's other parts,
And so is this chasm in our hearts.

I could never admit that I really did love you,
So it was I who had to be the cruel one to divide me and you.
I knew that this kind of love burned way too hot
And for now we must live with this chasm in my heart

If for only this lifetime it would be,
That you and I apart we should be.
Let the next life be that we shall be not divided from each other’s hearts,
And truly close that chasm in our hearts.

The Person Sitting Beside You


The Person Sitting Beside You

Who the person sitting beside you

When one place to another you must move

On a subway or bus or in a grocery store

Someone comes and sits close to you like other times before

You put up your protective shell

Like all other times as well

What are the deep feelings you feel

Take time right now and your shell you should peal

To see just how those others to you relate

Do they make you feel like some kind of bait?

Or is it you who does the judging

Without you doing the budging

You think of all the things you've been taught and you start to assume

Are they single, Muslim, Jewish, or gay and other things that may not be true?

Have we become to think and to look at another

Like they were some kind of ugly creature or other

By only seeing their outside looks

Like what you have been told by that religious book

Would you be a fellow human?

And extend your hand

With a smile just for a little while or a few seconds

Come on now your soul beckons.

Do you really know if that other person,

Is a friend or foe or just a human version,

 Of an Angel that you are unaware,

Put in your path to make you more aware

Of the things you think and what you do,

To the Person sitting *inside* of you.